for fuck sake women you know you all read me wrong and t=you start a fucking bad cycle by not understand standing something keep asking me when im fine if im angry and angry will be the end result, i woke up today feeling as tho you usual deadness had taken, that doesnt mean im down just aware im not feeling full of mad life loving power, then its a barrage of put downs and low energy i hate my lifes till im down there with you in your fucking pit of misery and you wonder why the subtile stench of bored fustration surrounds me, you fucking dick, too you and me, me for putting up with soo muchstupid whineing and bull shit facts about people and me almost the same im very much both our own enermies and today is a bad day my not even a day minuete, but when i can voice my self get miss understood and in a nice calm mood be mistaken for a cunt whos always angry makes me angry, i wana be outside having fun giggling but you with your pain body is locking me in with my pain body, a painbody is that phisical feel when your going of on one and your just watching your mouth move, or when scream to hear its you screaming, the part that craves the dramatic self torment that work to get negitive attention from others, keeping my own shit in cheek could be a lifes hard work in it self but dealing with others painbody conflicting with your own when your souls just want to live in eternal harmony only ever make me worry that the issues here and yes probably my communication but i mean enevitable issuse i can see yet.

now iv got that of my chest .... hi!